Thursday, July 17, 2008
im suddenly so LOST !
i need someone to guide me through...
i seems to have handle my things in an unproper ways
will it hurts someone in the end?
or its actually inevitable?
i duno!
i seriously HATE hurting people
this isnt wad i want!
my simple wish is just to see people around me be HAPPY
will it be grant?
in the past
i used to have a guardian angel - xian hao
does it still exist ?
can i still call eu anytime i like?
can i still chit chat with eu below my house till im running late for work?
can i still play tennis with eu?
can i still eat ajisen with eu?
can i still have my breakfast together in my house with eu?
can i still meet eu up for shopping?
can i still go to eu when im down?
can i still go cycling with eu?
can i still ... ...?
izzit still available?
somehow i feel we are drifting apart le...
Yes! eu are the friend that understands me most.
eu are the only one that can stand my attitude
eu are the only one that i had choose to TRUST
eu are the only one that will rush down all the way immediately to find me when im troubled
eu are the only one that will get worried for me in ANYTHING
i duno why...
i suddenly feel...
eu are leaving me soon..
or im leaving eu?
am i thinking too much?
or indeed eu are leaving?
did somethings go wrong somewhere? im LOST !
Men is a selfish creatures.
they wud only like to take possession of wad they like
but nv think of how the other party feel
or the consequences.
Or ... Only some of them?
-saw this line from a drama, seems quite true. isnt it?
im sorry to say im hiding something from eu!
im sorry to say the time isnt ripe to say yet!
maybe ...
i dunno...
am i ready?
or not?
the past scar in me had not left yet
im still scared!
im still not trusting ur words to me
i started to suspect too
i cant bring myself to commit thoroughly - im sorry
the hurts in me is really too much..
Yes! im strong enuff to withold the pain before
but it takes me a long long time..
do eu think the hurts had gone?
NO! for sure i can tell eu, it hadnt gone!
or i shud said the hurts had turn into hatred
and the trust for guys is NO MORE ?
the day i Lost him - 21 March 2008
i tot i wud not fall in love again
i tot i wud wait for him
i tot i wud make him love me once again
i tot after all i had done, he wud at least turn back
i tot after him, there wont be the next one
i tot without him, my life will be totally black n white
i tot without him, i cant go on
Now...
thinking of it..
i shud say i find myself foolish..
or i shud say at least i learn to fall down n stand up again?
i admit at least im strong enuff to go through all this alone
im gonna swear to myself,
ill treat myself more better den anyone else
i wont let anyone beat me down
i wont get hurts by anyone
i will be strong!
i will be independent!
Live For Yourself !
Smile For Yourself !
Love For Yourself !
Care For Yourself ! - Kexin =))
YYY
im lOving iiu .
5:00 AM
