Saturday, July 26, 2008
is it true that money can change everyone's attitude?
is it true that money can win over relationship, friendship or kinship?
to me, its NO !
but why the things that is happening around like telling me the answer is YES?
is money really that important?
im lazy to blog liaoos lahhs. Nights !
Sigh!! =((
YYY
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2:41 AM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Went Vivo City and done it with Panda
before editing ... =)) CUTE !!!
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After editing... NICE !!! =D
Mickey n Minnie 's POSTER !!!
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6:03 AM
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Ramdom Pics. =)
Nana bot me this Mushroom Shoe!
Isn't it CUTE? !!! I LOVE it man!
Taking during Min's B'dae
Ping n Min
Ping n Min
Ping n Xian Hao
Ahhbann n Ping
YYY
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1:50 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
went check up a few days back.
nothing serious at all. - phew~
Low blood pressure
heart not beating regurlarly
overall is OKs! =))
Thanks God!
Gotta noe this shocking news from my sis.
my DAD is coming back!
Oh my god!
heart attack man!
im not saying i dun wish him to come back
but is becos my Motor Lesson hasnt update AT ALL !!!
oh my god!
how am i going to answer my dad.
i sure kena scold until very jialat if he comes to noe bout this.
den confirm will push me to quit my job once again!
Arghhs~
the obstacles infront of me is too tough!
i can hardly breathe!
i dunno where my stand are.
i dunno where am i now
i seems to be stuck in the middle of the road being horn by alot of cars
im scared of the horns
i dunno which way to go
im seriously lost
can someone please give me a hand?
im glad i hold back my tears once again
but...
my heart is aching ..
the questions eu asked me
i admit i turn dumb
im really v frustrated
i dunno which step shud i go without hurting anyone
did i do anything wrong?
what really goes wrong?
i dun understand!
can i choose to go back to the starting point?
everything is happening too fast!
everyone's actions towards this situation is weird
i dunno how to react
so i chosen to carry a smile to hide over everything
is this the correct way?
hey people!
cud eu please stop forcing me to do this n that?!
im really confused by ur words to me!
can i just be a normal me?
can eu just stop pressing me?
can i be myself?
can i just be a simple kexin?
ur steps to me gives me me a lot of weight
can i throw away some?
i cant hold or accept at all!
im worried!
im scared!
im fear!
im LOST!
im being controlled by eu!
cud eu just let me be myself freely?
can i?
i appreciated the things eu had done for me!
Yes! i did said 'Wu Liao~' !
but.. do eu think thats wad i really felt?
how am i going to react?
eu are good to me.
i know!
Arghhs~
forget it!
at least i know eu dun understand me AT ALL !!!
take it as i dun give a damn!
take it as im taking everything for granted!
take it as im just a idiot!
Just get LOST !!!
i hate myself thoroughly!!!
i dun even feel like explaining!
just continue ur misuderstanding!
im sick of it!
YYY
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3:06 AM
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Ramdom Pics Taken in June.
Opps! i noe its too Late. =x
Me, Lip Teng , Na Na - Twist
Chi Ho, ME, Lip Teng - Cheese*
GateWay Mates - Office or Class Photo? =x
More Pics coming soon.....
Wait wait wait
Wait Long Long ~
GateWay Mates - Office or Class Photo? =x
More Pics coming soon.....
Wait wait wait
Wait Long Long ~
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6:02 AM
im suddenly so LOST !
i need someone to guide me through...
i seems to have handle my things in an unproper ways
will it hurts someone in the end?
or its actually inevitable?
i duno!
i seriously HATE hurting people
this isnt wad i want!
my simple wish is just to see people around me be HAPPY
will it be grant?
in the past
i used to have a guardian angel - xian hao
does it still exist ?
can i still call eu anytime i like?
can i still chit chat with eu below my house till im running late for work?
can i still play tennis with eu?
can i still eat ajisen with eu?
can i still have my breakfast together in my house with eu?
can i still meet eu up for shopping?
can i still go to eu when im down?
can i still go cycling with eu?
can i still ... ...?
izzit still available?
somehow i feel we are drifting apart le...
Yes! eu are the friend that understands me most.
eu are the only one that can stand my attitude
eu are the only one that i had choose to TRUST
eu are the only one that will rush down all the way immediately to find me when im troubled
eu are the only one that will get worried for me in ANYTHING
i duno why...
i suddenly feel...
eu are leaving me soon..
or im leaving eu?
am i thinking too much?
or indeed eu are leaving?
did somethings go wrong somewhere? im LOST !
Men is a selfish creatures.
they wud only like to take possession of wad they like
but nv think of how the other party feel
or the consequences.
Or ... Only some of them?
-saw this line from a drama, seems quite true. isnt it?
im sorry to say im hiding something from eu!
im sorry to say the time isnt ripe to say yet!
maybe ...
i dunno...
am i ready?
or not?
the past scar in me had not left yet
im still scared!
im still not trusting ur words to me
i started to suspect too
i cant bring myself to commit thoroughly - im sorry
the hurts in me is really too much..
Yes! im strong enuff to withold the pain before
but it takes me a long long time..
do eu think the hurts had gone?
NO! for sure i can tell eu, it hadnt gone!
or i shud said the hurts had turn into hatred
and the trust for guys is NO MORE ?
the day i Lost him - 21 March 2008
i tot i wud not fall in love again
i tot i wud wait for him
i tot i wud make him love me once again
i tot after all i had done, he wud at least turn back
i tot after him, there wont be the next one
i tot without him, my life will be totally black n white
i tot without him, i cant go on
Now...
thinking of it..
i shud say i find myself foolish..
or i shud say at least i learn to fall down n stand up again?
i admit at least im strong enuff to go through all this alone
im gonna swear to myself,
ill treat myself more better den anyone else
i wont let anyone beat me down
i wont get hurts by anyone
i will be strong!
i will be independent!
Live For Yourself !
Smile For Yourself !
Love For Yourself !
Care For Yourself ! - Kexin =))
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5:00 AM
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
indeed i have to say eu are an irritating fella !
can eu please at least grow up?
eu are not young anymore
stop all those childish thinking alrights?
having those unlucky things happening around eu
it was only the cause of eu
not ME hu cause it!
cud eu please wake up?
knock knock!
bang the wall please!
stop going around telling people
ur unlucky days are the cause of me
when actually i DIN do anything!
eu are really a "GOOD" guy man!
in front of me telling me how nice of me to do this n that
den behind me complain this n that
excuse me
did i block ur way?
or izzit i owe eu
yar! please!
Get LOST !
i dun even noe why i get to noe eu
its really a WASTE of my time
looking at ur SMSes
noeing ur news
or wadeva
anyway, im not going to WASTE any more of my time
or feelings on eu
thats too pathetic!
CONGRATS to ALICA n WEN KANG ! =))
ROM - 12 July
im really very happy for them lohhs
n i can say wen kang is indeed a great guy for taking the responsible.
Alica must stay happy always n must be xing fu oh!
i gave them a susprised when they check in into my hotel
they appreciated it
and i find my susprised for them so sweet
somehow i wish to get married soon lohhs.
hmms... sweet as honey..... so swit ~ LOVES !! <3
went out with xian hao on 1o July
to Bugis den walk to suntec have our dinner
we ate pepper lunch!
Wow! first the meal is so Yummy..
but... eat until cold liao not nice liao lohhs..
we dedicate song for each other.
but wait too long lahhs.
den missed the song xian hao dedicate for me
den when the song i dedicate had played
we din notice at all
till played until half way den notice lohhs
den in the end
xian hao dedicate again
den we find a place seat down chit chat n
wait wait wait lohhs... =))
LOLs
On our way home,
xian hao told me,
'im v worried bout eu'
well~ i can understand he is worried
ill get hurts once again
that is why he is so protective towards me
Thanks Xian Hao - Mr Turtle ! =))
Sigh! talk bout me now...
Recently din have a good sleep at all lohhs
been having headache lately
dun really have much appetite
wad happen?!
cause of this is THINK TOO MUCh? !
hahaas
i dunno oso. LOLs.
Well! im KEXIN mahhs.
im strong de OK! ill be FINE de lohhs =))
YYY
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12:09 AM
Sunday, July 13, 2008
why do people only care bout how they are feeling?
have we ever thought of standing in other people's shoes?
why do people always never treasure the things that is around us,
den when the things had gone,
we would start to complained
or said the person had changed, etc?
i dunno izzit im standing in ur shoes.
but seriously i can feel the pain eu are enduring.
i so much wish to help out.
but i dunno where to start.
Maybe...
just act as normal as i can
and chat normally
n treat as if nothing really did happened.
izzit better this way?
i so much wish to say NO to her!
but it seems too hard.
am i helping eu or
i dun wanna see another crybaby?
i really wish to STOP hearing anything from eu!
eu can really affect my mood.
Cud eu stop harrassing into my life?
STOP all the sms-ing or talk to me.
i dun want to have ANYTHING to do with eu.
even a simple wishes,
i DUN WAN too!
i really hope i dunno eu AT ALL !
Yes! the fear feeling is back again.
i thought after hidden it,
it will gone.
but i was wrong.
how come?
i thought after making the first move
to talk to eu,
voice out to eu,
shared with eu,
i wud at least overcome
the fearful-ness eu gave me.
But NO!
it did not went away,
but actually come back as n when it likes.
sometimes i feel like avoiding,
but its too obvious.
is it because eu are too scary?
or ur actions shocks me too much?
are eu supposed to treat me laidat?
or becos eu find that im an easy gal to deal with?
or becos its challenging?
i dunno!
Shud i trust eu?
or just go on blindly?
i need an explanation from eu!
but, how am i going to open my mouth to eu?
everything isnt right at all.
i need some space people.
breathe~ breathe~ breathe~ =))
YYY
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10:07 PM
everything seems to go on smoothly or...
not smoothly as i think?
izzit the cause of me?
or the cause of everyone's reaction towards each other?
im not sure either?
eu said,
a person will meet 3 person in his / her life;
1st- someone eu really love
2nd- someone will love eu deep
3rd-the one that will hold ur hands till Forever
Have i met this 3 person?
Well! the answer is clear to me.
i've met the first one.
but the Second?
Have i met?
eu answered ' Yes! its HIM!'.
i was stunned!
Den i came back to sense and said
'Yar! its seems true! but really?'
im not sure either.
or maybe a few years down the road?
i tot everyone's r/s is diff in many ways
but yet i found out,
there's not much diff.
No matter wad ur age is
how old or how young are you
there isnt any different.
the diff is only how eu treat this r/s your way.
To say the truth, Yes!
indeed i had that special feeling for eu
but izzit bcos eu have some familiar points like him?
Den i mistook u as him?
i noe very clearly n i can really differentiate the both of eu
but what makes me whirl is when im with him
my mind is actually thinking of EU!
When im with eu
im free from all troubles
is this what we called the process of LOVE ?
Eu are the fishing rod n im the fish
eu are waiting for me to bite on ur food n catch me
but...
after catching me,
wud eu put me in a fish tank n take very good care?
or...
Bbq me n eat it up instead?
im really v whirl NOW!
Sometimes involving in a no outcome relationship
or no movement relationships seems really tiring
we can either choose to stay still or step forward
but have we ever think of the consequences behind it after our movement?
when people starts to gave up
we wud start complaining saying he/she isnt true to eu
but have we ever asked ourselves
did we gave him / her a chance?
we cant blame anyone but to accept the fact
that he / she had given up
by that time when eu feels regret,
izzit too late?
it seems hard to have a two-side LOVE yea?
agree with me?
Recently i just got to noe this person whom i noe
for quite a long time or maybe its short?
i actually seen another side of him
its really shocking to me!
Does it mean when eu are sad or angry,
we must follow the same feeling as eu?
Eu only noe BLAMING!
what's the point?
have eu ever tell urself to take a step backward n think?
what's the point of acting childish?
what's the point of showing sympathy in front of us?
Yes! we noe very clearly eu need love n an listening ear
we tried to be ur listening ear
we tried to care for eu more
we tried to consoled eu
we tried to give eu some advice
but haven we done enough?
i admit sometimes im abit pissed off by eu
everyone walk thru ur road before
there are alot more people going thru more high n low
den why are eu holding on to this feeling
trying to say 'im more worst den others!'
can i tell eu to stop doing all those
childish things with ur childish thinking?
im really sorry to say this
but i really hope
eu can understand wad's my intention.
Sigh! Continue again some other day.
One more hour to go and im going off to sleep.
working now.... hehees... =))
GOOD MORNING !!! ... Yawnzzzz....
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