Sunday, May 25, 2008
knowing the incident at Sichuan.
gave me alot of feelings
we had actually taken alot of things for granted!
we din really treasure the things around us.
we take it as it will always be our side n just leave it aside.
Yes! we are fortunate enuff!
we dont have to suffer all this.
we can still go out with our legs
we can still carry things with our hands
we can still walk a hundred miles with our love ones
we can still hug our love ones with our arms
but the people there, can they do it?
they so much wish to live just to see their wife staying at home waiting for them.
they so much wish to see the corpse that is carried out isnt their son or daugther.
can over here,
we are wasting our time quarreling
angry with each other
cold war
after knowing it,
how much i wish eu are still beside me
let me noe i need to treasure eu alot
let me noe i still need to give eu more
izzit really true eu wont love me back anymore?
we are already separate for 2 months plus!
im not healed yet!
i still MISS eu alOt!
i still LOVE eu alOt!
i noe the care eu shown towards me isnt willingly
i still holds this HOPE that eu would come to me no matter wad.
its really miserable for me to undergo this pain
and becos of eu im undergoing this depression i cant control
how i wish eu cud just give urself n me a chance
i still cant believe i've actually LOST eu
i still dun wanna admit im single
i NEED you MR PIG !
my love for eu is still STRONG!
can eu please come back?!
can eu just give me the rest of ur time to treasure eu?
im really suffering Mr Pig!
im not feeling any better at all
today my collegues asked me
if eu are left for one day to live
what will eu do?
im suddenly so lost of words
i suddenly wanted to see eu so much
give eu a big big hug
i admit going to work
meeting my collegues in the workplace
laughing with them
playing with them
is just a way of avoiding
is just a way of putting those unhappy moments leave my mind for awhile
but why hasnt the pain just leave?
i tot i could at least 'used' this to forget eu
but why cant i?
every moment eu still crawl into my mind
how am i going to forget eu Mr Pig?
eu mess up my life totally!
my smiles are fake
my playful are fake
my cheerful are fake
i just wanna stay quiet and vanished totally!
i dun wish to hold that stupid smiles on me anymore
i dun wish to act anymore
i just want to be myself
can i?
i noe i cant!
YEs! i told eu before im having depression.
but surprisingly,
none believe me,
and actually said im joking or think too much
den..
after i told eu my story
Thats when eu believe im having depression
im really zou huo ru mo!
and eu are shocked!
isnt it true?
where are eu when i need a helping hand?
where are eu when i asked for a listening ear?
i tried to tell eu
but the outcome isnt wad i want
den..
eu came..
and asked me
i told eu my story
and thats when i find myself more relieved!
and eu are actually so worried n helping me to solve it.
eu are indeed a good friend!
maybe thats what we called
Bu Da Bu Xiang Si
thats how we know each other better n treasuring each other so much now
isnt it?
are we wasting too much time?
how long have we not treasuring?
seriously i can understand how eu are feeling!
its miserable i noe!
I can totally understand how eu feel!
i experience before.
but what can i do to help?
but dun eu find urself too much?
when i was undergoing that miserable period
had anyone ask how am i?
had anyone give me a helping hand?
NO !
i was breaking down
but hu was there to help?
seriously
NO ONE!
im not blaming eu
im still willing to help
its just that my heart isnt balance anymore
now eu came complaining to me
den when i need a hand
eu are over there happily enjoying
isnt this abit funny?
have eu started donate money to Sichuan?
Do it now !
it save lives!
THEY NEED UR CARE !
am i too much?
Our friends at Sichuan are so miserable fighting for their lives
and im over here dealing with my feelings
YYY
im lOving iiu .
8:19 PM
