Monday, April 21, 2008
finally one month had past! shud i said "Happy Separated One Month" or ... ?
am i healed?
am i alrights?
am i fine?
i dunno.
people said relationship can be salvage.
izzit true?
i tried asking among my friends.
Yes! they managed to save their relationship!
no matter is quarrellings, fightings, feelings faded, timer..
their relationship is save back again!
isnt it surprised?!
i tried asking myself,
can i?
am i able to do it?
am i too foolish?
why am i making myself so miserable?
i dun understand either
everything is too coincidence!
Everywhere I go! Anywhere! Just Name it!
There is ur Shadow!
i tried to let eu leave my mind for a second
but...
the next second eu came n knock on my mind again
Everything i see relates to eu.
The numbers, the cartoon character, the songs, etc
What can i do?
Bring a smile and just walk straight.
Everyone started asking me,
"hey! how's eu n ur boyfriend?, where's ur boyfriend?, i just got to noe, eu had a boyfriend!"
How am i able to answer them?
I cant bring myself to tell them we had gone separated ways.
so, i just told them 'he's not free!, we are fine!'
is this avoiding or too stupid to not accept the facts that i had alr lost eu?
I dun even understand myself.
am i still willing to wait? or im starting to give up?
i just cant control myself!
everytime i saw something nice, i wud have this urge to buy for eu.
can i? i hold back once again
The first time eu drop ur tears in front of me.
i was lost of words.
lost of actions
my heart was shouting for help
my mind asking me what shud i do
no answer came out
i started to had this fear
i started to walk far away from eu
finally~ im back home.
i feel much relieved!
but the next moment
i regretted!
i shouldnt have walk off just laidat leaving eu behind.
i noe eu are tired
i noe what eu want
i noe eu need a hand
i noe eu need love n care now
i noe eu need understanding
i noe eu need more colours in ur life
i told eu i may not be the one or im not the one
but eu told me
eu wanna see how our storys goes
i kept silent
i asked myself will i be happier with eu?
i asked myself will eu treasure me more?
i asked myself will we be able to go on?
i asked myself will eu hold my hands tightly when that day comes?
i asked myself will eu treat me better?
i asked, i asked, i asked..
den i started to find out..
yes! eu would surely do it!
but will it be forever?
or after a couple of months, we are sick n tired n leave again?
the trust isnt there yet.
the promise isnt there yet
the actions isnt there yet
the feelings isnt there yet
we are too young!
our thinkings isnt the same.
our goals.
our communication
everything n everything!!
There's too much to worried Boy!
it isn that easy!
Our path is still long
Dont eu feel ashamed of urself?
telling me when eu are in need of help, no one help eu.
going around cheating people
bringing harm to ur parents
den come here telling me how pity eu are when all is just AN ACT!
Search ur heart Gal!
Stop taking ur friends for granted!
eu are using up our trust.
eu are ruining urself!
Wake up Gal!
Seriously, i wud wish to give eu a tight slap!
a big scolding!
a huge lecture!
but..
will this help?
i doubt!
God! what can i do?
stay by urself and do nothing?
opening my eyes seeing eu do all those harmful things n not stopping eu?
i dunno!
what actually do eu want from me?
our friendship had been going thru alot of test.
had we passed? or had we failed?
the results isnt out yet!
eu wanna noe when will the results shown?
on the day we leave the world!
i have to n i want to believe,
till that day, even everyone leaves us,
we would still stand hand in hand, back to back!
Keep Going Bann`Douu!
I Love You!
KEXIN IS BACK ! =))
YYY
im lOving iiu .
11:09 PM
