Monday, March 10, 2008
was packing my things this few days.
cus im moving house soon.
i didnt noe i was so crazy for 5566 in the past till i pack my cupboard.
Goodness!!!
there's 5566 cut magazine, postcard, album, photo, signature etc.
wahahas.
i cant help laughing at myself.
lOls
Ohya! i saw the shoelace eu gave me before - blue n white square pattern
i wore it once and keep it till now.
do eu want it back?
tried wearing those shorts that i cant wear in the past few months.
Wow! to my surprised it FITS me !!
i slim down man! - cheers*
hohoOs.
injuries on my leg,
the skin is torn.
so pain man!
i hate it when people look at my wound.
i find it so disgusting.
when can it recover?
my poor leg.
haiis
its true why izzit always must be eu calling me,
and not i call eu.
its bcos i find that everytime i called eu,
either eu are not free or
chat awhile, eu would ask to hang up. - happens alot of time
i cant use phone at night too,
my daddy is around.
even if i need eu, i wud wonder whether shud i call eu.
but i noe, even if i called, eu wouldnt come,
that is why i changed my mind.
maybe eu would say 'eu nv tried, how eu noe?'
I Do Noe! - wont elaborate
Sometimes even if i need eu real much,
i would still do a double thinking,
worried that the care i want for the outcome isnt what eu give
n in the end im the one getting hurts once again.
As expected, i knew the days has came.
we hadnt meet up for more than a week.
eu may find it alright.
Eu may say 'its fine with me!'
eu may say 'ok wad!'
but ????
haiiis......
i understand !!
i really understand!!!
but i just cant help blaming eu n me!
scold me for being so not understanding!
eu told me eu treasure me!
eu told me in ur heart there's still me.
are eu just saying for the sake of saying?
ur actions DOESNT tells at all!
the fake smile we had,
spolit everything!
betray our heart!
I HATE IT !
what have we really done?
we are drifting far apart !
i get irritates when receiving ur calls now.
i hate it even more when eu call to just talk bout that!
i hate it when eu are selfish!
always asking me to be understanding, eu?
have eu?
have eu ever tried standing in my shoes?
sometimes yes, sometimes no.
me too! i admit!
I want more care from eu!
I want more love from eu!
but... ... ...
I guess... im not fit to get either one.
haiis.
towards eu, i feel like avoiding.
i feel like just hiding myself up,
stop getting any phone calls or sms from eu,
i wanna FREEZE myself for the time being.
maybe one day, when i sees eu,
my smile would be brighter!
I hope eu had ur happy times ahead!
im tired of saying things repeatedly!
i hate the feelings that i dun wan, coming back repeatedly!
thanks for holding on to my hands when crossing the road.
i feel needed n loved by eu!
===== I Could Never Be The One! =====
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im lOving iiu .
11:20 PM
