Thursday, March 27, 2008
In The Past Is a Dazzling Stone But Now It Doesnt Shine Anymore
Mr Pig;Tweety;Mr Violent;Darling;Laogong; Mr YapMrs Pig;Sylvester;Mrs Violent;Dear;Laopo; Mrs Yap
eu created our stories on 28o8o7-12.17am and eu stops it at 21o3o8-10.34pm
分手只用了一分钟而已!
这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
曾经我们觉得
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次为了这个原因吵
但是我们依然相信我们会永远
因为我们了解到
Men are from MARS
Women are from VENUS
但是
你的不安，赢得你信任
我也得到你残忍的淘汰!
my heart is really pain!
really really pain.
i tot i would be happier to at least have the chance to leave this miserable life
i tot i wont feel pain n will be able to let go very freely
but i was totally wrong!
my heart is getting more n more pain as the minutes n hours goes by!
eu hurts me real deep, real deep!
its that kind of pain which i had never felt before!
unbearable n hard to breathe.
every pain that came makes me punch my heart hardly thinking it may ease abit.
eu had succeed in making me forget my past love life.
eu had succeed in making me feel eu are the one
eu had succeed by entering my heart
eu had succeed in making me bleeds
eu had succeed in everything
eu told me u came out with this decision is becos ur love for me had fade
eu told me eu had this thinking is during ur exam period- end of January
but eu didnt mention anything to me
till March 11, i tot we are still fine just that we didnt meet up much
do eu still rmb last year i went to Malaysia for a week?
Do eu know when i came back, my love had fade?
do eu know actually i didnt want to meet up with eu when eu wanted to?
but i still meet up!
cus i believe our love isnt that weak!
and i noe we will be able to find back the feelings.
i trust that eu will hold my hand tightly from the day i said 'Choice 1'
i trust that we will go on till the day we lost our breathe
alot of times i cant hold anymore, i decide to end this relationship too,
im scared of ur control, im scared of ur temper
im scared of ur everything!
but what did i do?
I ACCEPT all becos I LOVE EU !
i believe we will walk thru everything!
but now,
eu told me eu had fear in going out with me
eu told me eu are scared to meet me
have eu ever mention it to me?
do eu noe how pain it is for me to hear this from ur mouth?
i told eu before bout my dreams.
eu told me it is not true.
and Laopo is a work for eu to call never ending.
but now?
told eu before im afraid after being with eu ill change to a different kexin.
but eu say if that happens, eu will still stay by my side and change me back.
Now?
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this is the three things eu told me, eu wanted to do to me.
Till now, i dun even noe what it is. can i noe it?
I dun understand why when eu were thinking of breaking,
you didnt mention anything to me,
letting me tot we're fine.
If eu tell me, at least i can try my best to save it.
I dun understand why ur feelings fade so fast.
Everywhere I go is ur shadow.
As long as there is any places we went together before
there would be ur shadow, Bus,MRT,etc...
Too much of ur shadow makes my heart bleeds alot!
Seeing things related to us, bleeds more! - 28, 217, Tweety, Sylvester, etc...
Listening to songs related to us hurts me even more! - That's when I Love You, 世界唯一的你，因为我相信，我一直都在,Till the end, etc...
Before eu made the decision,
I was still planning on how to celebrate our 7th Month. - 28o7o8
But all is ruin by YOU !
By touching EVERYTHING in me and leave just laidat makes eu feel better?
leaving me alone to handle this painful wound created by YOU !
I dun understand why guys like to say 'break-up' using SMS?
Cant they just face their partner and say it?
have the courage to face your partner when wooing them but no courage when asked for 'break-up'
Do eu noe how uneasy am i not receiving ur missed call and sms?
Not missing call n sms eu makes me feel uneasy too!
Every minute every hour i would start asking myself,
'what are eu doing at this time?' ,
'how are eu feeling?' ,
'feeling Stress today?' ,
'Tired today?' ,etc....
Im worried bout eu too!
Dunno if eu had enuff water?
cause eu catch a cold easily.
have ur meals regularly?
cause eu had gastric pain.
still continue eating instant noodles? -that will make ur hair falls alot!
spending ur money within ur control?
have sufficient sleep?
leg still pain due to playing?
thumb still okaees?, etc...
Worried... ... ... ... ... ...
Will eu still think of me?
Will eu still think of our past memories?
Will eu still miss me?
Are eu hurts?
or too happy to finally have freedom?
I always believe im the last gal.
I always believe im urs forever.
i always believe eu wont let go of my hands
i tot eu wud be my last stop
Till now, i still cant believe i had actually lost you!
i cant believe from ur so called 'lifetime partner' had downgrad to 'friend'!
i dun wan to be ONLY ur friend! can eu understand?
i promise you i wont leave you no matter what.
Even if eu are too possesive, too stubborn, too hot-tempered,
ill still accept and love for what eu are!
and now, eu are just leaving me with just a sorry.
What am i to eu?
You are the first guy that touches n seen everything
And you are leaving just laidat.
Am I that cheap to you?
Am i that Kinda of gal?
Im SERIOUSLY hurts by YOU!
Its so hard to bring a smile everywhere i go.
its so hard to act as if im fine and nothing happens when actually the pain in my heart is killing me.
Thinking in the future, eu would fall for other gals.
made me so so pain!
I cant afford to hold on if eu really did fall for other gals n flirt with them!
Holding their hands if they are cold,
kissing their lips,
touching their waist,
hugging them
when actually its done on me once before!
i NOE im stupid to think laidat
but... i just CANT ACCEPT it!
for all I can say is ' IM SERIOUSLY HURTS BY YOU!
I would rather eu remain treating me cold den asking for break-up!
Oh My God!
Its unbearable!!
I miss ur Mr Pig show.
Eu promised to show it to me during our half year.
but now....
Everyone said:
I derserve a better guy,
eu are not the type that will be in relationship for long,
at least im the one eu put alot of effort in,
at least im the one eu stay ur love for long,
But im still hurts!
I dun wan to be ONLY ur past n the first gal eu actually ... ... ...
I wanna be the ONE AND ONLY eu love in all ur life!
i wan to walk with eu till we fall asleep in coffin.
I wud nv wish bad things but i dun wish eu well.
it hurts to noe u'll never be there.
it's painful to see ur face everywhere
it was eu hu choose to end it like eu did in the past
When you are gone
The words i need to hear and our memories always get me thru the days and make it okaees
Everything that I do reminds me of YOU!
The clothes eu left behind, they smell just like eu!
All i ever wanted was for eu to noe,
everything I'd do I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe!
Po go sip eo yo = I MISS YOU
You told me eu love me!
If eu are not going to take responsibility for other guy's baby
den DON'T bullshit!
From the day eu say you will do nothing with me and i misunderstood it.
we had alr build a wall in between if eu notice
its hard for us to walk into each other heart once again.
we need time to start all over again
its too hard to be back to normal so easily again
becos..
I can see behind every talks,
smile n laughter hides something.
I dunno if it was eu hu choose to not voice anything in order not to make things worsen
OR i choose to keep silent.
We both didnt tried hard to save anything
shud say we are avoiding the problems
OR we choose to leave it aside bahhs
I understand its no use blaming each other
cus having this type of problems
both parties held a responsibility
it was US hu creates it!
whether to leave or save it is still up to OUR decision
and i believe we are not going to leave it,
cuss our PROMISE towards each other is NOT empty!
YYY
im lOving iiu .
9:48 AM
