Wednesday, December 19, 2007
i noe im a gal hu will fall in love easily. but at the same time i treated every relationship seriously! But cant eu all sense it!
rmb in my pervious post, i mentioned its hard to understand a person. Do eu all agree with me that it takes years to understand someone? Some may say a few years. But how long is a few years? 3 years? or 5 years? or more? Although i noe Ahhbann for 10 years, but do we really understand each other tat much? people around us might envy our friendship that can hold for so long and might even say, "of cos understand lahhs!" But to Ahh bann n me? i guessed our answer to this question is, " we are still learning!".
Wad do CARE really mean? by asking "how are you? "or " Are you fine?"
tats wad we called CARE? or there are different meaning in CARE?
Sometimes good news isnt worth to be happy about. Everytime when good news reach my ear, it will followed by bad news. why is that so? why is this world so unfair?
Sometimes or i shud say everytime, whenever i sees them, i would envys them! I dunno why either. or maybe i dunno how lucky am i bahhs...
have eu people think of commit sucide? like, cut ur hand, eat lOts of pills, drown urself, dash out to the road, hang urself, etc...
Have anybody thought of? if you had not, den maybe eu are leading a happy life and eu noe how fortunate eu are. For those people who would think of commit sucide, i shud say its STUPID!!! Because this is avoiding and hiding!! im not pointing at anyone, cuss i myself have thought of it too.
Wad's the point? Why not stand upright and face it bravely? No one can knock eu down unless eu want it urself! think of ur love ones! will they cry a few days and forget eu? eu hold an important part in everyone's heart! Everywhere we go, there woud be shadow of EU!!
What i believe is, when eu are about to die, or have think of dying, the person that came into ur mind, is the person that eu wouldnt bear to LOSE!!! Touch ur heart and ask yourself!!
I know what ur answer is. And i noe im not the person that eu dont wish to lose! maybe ur other friends? maybe ur family? maybe ur hu n hu? i dunno! its ok too! i dun blame eu n i have never think of blaming eu either. Ur decision is correct! I respect it too! As long as eu would treasure me and hold me tight when eu are still around in this world! thats all i ask for! =))
Everyone told me eu are a straightforward person! Wouldnt care for other people's feeling. i didnt believe it at first! Just treated them as joking and helping eu to say some nice words to let them have more good image on eu den bad image. Till that day!!! den i found out, eu are indeed a straightforward person. Just saying out everything you like, not caring whether the other party get hurts!!
What kind of family leads to wad kind of person eu are! Just like me, i came from a strict, little care, full of jokes, full of quarrels, full of beating's family! people near me may noe the situation in my house. Seeing friend's around me so close with their parents make me envy's so much!! i would always tell myself, " why cant i do that? ", " why cant i joke with my parents? " I TRIED !!! i did tried! but what did i get in the end? Who cares! glum face! thats all!!
I always remember LiShao's words, " change yourself first before changing others ". had i change? or not?
getting so many evil words from their mouth, 'no brain, stupid, lazy, good for nothing, etc..' makes me so fear!!! I dislike those words that remind of my past! i wanna hide my past! but its that stupid scar n face of me makes me remember everything!!!
i hate the scar they give! i hate the comments they gave when i went for singing competition! I just hate it!!
Seeing my family laidat, makes me worry toO! will my future be the same? copy n paste? i dun feel like thinking too much!! Time can change someone! Time can change someone's heart too!
Will my future have, ' no brain, stupid, lazy, good for nothing, etc.." ? this fear had followed me for the past 10 years! hadnt i think of leaving the house? yes i had..
i cant forget the.... .... they gave me!!
i cant forget the.... .... they gave me!!
i cant forget the.... .... they gave me!!
i cant forget the.... .... they gave me!!
I JUST CANT GET RID OF THEM!!!
forget it! who would care so much bout my childhood fear! No one noes how hard it is! Who cares! Just throw in gabbage will do!
I just hate every every everything!!
Dont bother bout me!
Let me be crazy for a moment!
La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la ... ... ... .. ... ... . ... .. ..
Sometimes i really wish to be a witch who takes away everyone's happiness! I noe im evil and selfish. Just let me be for a moment!!
Please send me an angel...
I love You!!! <3
原来可以因为爱上一个人而改变
我其实任性 其实爱哭 其实腼腆
是你以为 你了解我的全世界
我愿为你去学习忘记自己
继续努力
*_____ 你对爱的想法 和我有了分岔 _____*
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im lOving iiu .
8:12 PM
