Saturday, December 08, 2007
After eu leave me, i will always asked myself, when is the next time i will get to see eu again... ...
my words no longer holds anything to eu le. my words no longer stands a place le. i guessed its time for me to learn not to rely on eu too much le... ... ... ... ...
why izzit every relationship will always have a before n after? before getting together, he / she will give eu something that eu yearn for.. but after getting together for not long. everything changes le. why is that so? izzit because eu already gotten his / her heart den shows that ur work is done? no more respect will be there? not as caring as before? or izzit the communication is not there? but izzit true after communicating the other party will understands?
i just seems we both are drifting further le. maybe lack of communication? or wad? but i love the feeling when im with eu. will feel that we are still the same as the past. as loving as before. but after parting... ..
are ur words true to me? why izzit sometimes i feel that it isnt true? i just that eu are saying that for the sake of saying.sometimes i wish to expect more, but end up disappointed... ...
what will happen the next minute to the people around eu, nobody noes! please treasure everyone that is by ur side now! dun make urself regret for the decision eu make. REGRET isnt a good things to handle.
i guess im not the person eu need bahhs. im not as understanding as eu think. im not as strong as eu think. but why are eu always doing this to me? just because eu think i am able to hold it? or after doing it den start telling me eu are guilty or wad? playing holds ur life so much? cant even bother bout how i will feel when i noe it? wad shud i do? what must i do? because of eu, im hating myself! hating myself for controlling eu so much! hating myself for giving eu those bu bi yao de ma fan! i guessed eu all must be thinking im really selfish bahhs... ... let it be then... im tired le. let me breathe again...
why is my heart aching when im listening to a cute song? why does my eyes fill with tears when im actually listening to a happy song? WHY??? !!!
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im lOving iiu .
12:22 AM
