Friday, November 16, 2007
today have been busy organising xiao wei's party. Hope everything goes well! really scared there will be problem. kept running here and there to make the time right. Makes me feel like fainting. but still build a strong face in front of everyone. many times running here n there makes me giddy. noe why? cuss whole day i just ate 2 chocolate bread den busy planning things le.
kind of regret cooking those stuff in my house. cuss cleaning is done by me only. have learn a lesson for volunteering to cook at home den make myself busy n smelly only.
Anyway, its FUN toO! see her smillee is enuff le.. but too bad.. no tears lahhs.
saw her.. but too gan ga. dunno wad to talk to her about. den was like avoiding her too. but after she left.. was kind of regret.. why cant i just talk to her openly? there's still a guilty feeling in me...
saw him too... behind my block. i noe why he was here. i now why he was sad. i noe why he wear that shirt. i noe why he print that number on his shirt. its all because of ME!!! but i cant do anything too. all i can say is Im sorry!
wad's happening here? why is it everything seems to be my fault? why am i always giving in? why am i always keeping quiet and fight for my right? why am i so stupid? why am i so careless? why did my mood change easily? why am i so evil? why am i so bad? Arghhs~ Just HATE me for all eu wan!!! I DUN CARE ANYMORE!!!
i need space to breathe! i really need some space. i feel so miserable! feel im dying soon... even if i died.. please let me die peacefully....
Arghhs~ Wads gone into me?!!!! forget it!!! im Crazy already!!! Eu just wont understand! Eu toO!!! dun ask me anything. just give me time... I NEED TIME !!!
im tired... ... im exhuasted... ... its doesnt feel good in everything... it doesnt feel good at all...
someone please send me to woodbridge... wahahahahas. Joking de lahhs. lOls. =DD
Smille everyone!! I lOve eu Guys!!! Especially HIM n HER !!!!
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im lOving iiu .
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