Saturday, November 10, 2007
Alone in the bus. Raining plus the cold air con. not feeling well at all. having flu, sore throat, stomach pain the whole day till now. In bus still got a headache. Makes me feel so cold n lonely. Trying to reach for ur hand. but eu are not beside me. In the past, eu once told me, if i were to ask eu to find me, even if there's no train anymore, eu would still come and find me. Would eu do the same now? my eyes is fill with tears now. I need eu badly by my side now!
Eu ask me y my face was black. Seriously saying, i dunno too! I just dun feel like talking. but seeing eu putting so much effort in FLP, makes me feel really proud of eu! Got so many time, i wanna tell eu, Eu Are The Best!
In office, i noe eu wanna buy those products that eu dun have, den i got to noe eu are lack of liquid soap, was thinking shud i offer my help? I think alOtt! I knew ur answer is dun wan! but i just feel like giving the last try. Hu noes ur answer is dun wan still! I can understand why eu say dun wan. But i just feel my kindness isnt appreciate.
Maybe eu do not noe, when eu are talking to me, ur tone is getting higher n higher by the days goes by. Eu seems to build a small wall in between as when as eu like. I really dunno wad eu wan from me.
Am i really not good enuff? is there any room for improvment? i feel so Shi Bai!!! Am i really the important person in ur heart? Am i really the one?Can eu really stand my moody side? Wad do eu actually sees in me?
I found out sometimes eu tense to find me irritating when eu chat with me on the fone. izzit true? Am i really that irritating to eu? Did i do anything wrong?
On the way home, so lonely! Walking near my house de car park! SO DARK!!! im so scared!! Got a car pass me, den i was like shivering, scared the car will sudden stop den pull me up. i nearly burst out with tears! Where were eu?
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im lOving iiu .
1:02 AM
