Sunday, August 19, 2007
Sometime I really wish to share ur worries n sadness. But I just cant figure out why are eu still hiding things from me? Izzit im not mature enuff to share all this with eu? I noe all the answers eu gave me is fake, so I just keep quiet and trying to show I trust n believe eu. But ur actions tells eu dun trust me at all. Or eu just dun wan me to worry too much for eu? I have been waiting for eu to tell me the truth. But NO answer from eu at all. Mum! Please dun stress urself too much can?
Oh!!! HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO SWEET AMANDA !!! haahaas. Its been so long since I sees her le. If next time got chance, we go drink milo kaees. hohoOs.
As for ahh bann. Hmms. Its quite sad tat im maybe the one to break eu two’s friendship. I have nothing to say too. But I hope wadeva decision eu make wont make eu regret for ur life. Sometimes giving in is not a bad things oso. She may not call eu, but eu can call her right? I noe eu scare dunno call her eu must say wad, but let me ask eu, when eu do invitation calling, did eu think tat much? Just pick up ur call and start talking, after awhile… eu two will be an auntie liaoos. Come on. Build ur friendship properly. If not how are eu going to go on? Losing one of ur love ones is like losing ur soul! Got it? I the past I may get jealous yar? Hahaas. I admit alrights!! Lols. But now, wont le!!! And I promise eu I wont too! So, dun be vex bout both of us the next time, cuss eu have given me ur promise tat no one can replaced me in ur heart, remember? Tat’s wad I believe n I trust tat eu wont bec0s of a friend den leave me al0ne yar? Just go on kaees? Pass the baton to me first. But dun walk too fast ah, must try to walk slower for me to catch up eh, I still need to pass eu the baton ehs. Lets Count on our FRIENDSHIP FOREVER !!!on n on n on… … … … … … =D
Well! Yesterday was a HAPPY plus Lousy day for me. Why happy lehhs? Haahaas. Cus I attend 1hour plus of my lesson only!! Lols. Den I went down to orchard to meet up with Xiao Wei, Wei Ming n Jian Liang! Starting xiaowei’s mood was lousy man! I see her lousy I oso lousy l0hhs. Very xing ku ah. I was trying to talk to her den hoping to see her smile… but NO!!! arghhs~ make me so xing ku! Fortunately, here comes ho ming’s call saying meeting change till 330pm den her smile is back! Den my heart was like PHEW~ FINALLY !!! haahaas. Ah wei ah!! Dun pull a black face ah! I very xing ku man. ah ki’s mood oso spoilt by eu ah. =D
After that we went Shaw House to have our lunch! Awhile later Jian Liang says he’s headache den needs to go home. But can really see is bec0s of xiao wei lahhs. Haiis. Shoudnt be laidat de. Tot its suppose to be a good mood for all of us. But end up laidat. But not bec0s of this den we mood swing lahhs. We do noe we dun bear to see him leave just like tat lahhs. After our lunch, went office l0hhs. On the way to office, Wei Ming’s face was black man!! its was BLACK ah!! I oso dunno wad happen to him either. So much wanted to console him, so much wanting to ask him why, but just dun dare. Just dun have the courage lahhs. So, I walk far far behind him l0hhs.
Reach office le. Den here comes Ho Ming, Wei ming n Ho Ming started to Chit Chat den of c0s xiao wei n I started to chit chat oso l0hhs. Den sudden a ‘F***’ word comes out from his mouth. Xiao Wei n I kena shock man!! Can sees that he is having a bad mood. Somehow feel lucky tat just now nv talk to him, if not dunno wad will happen to me lahhs. Well, I can only said im quite disappointed lahhs. Den I went out to take a walk l0hhs. Den sudden its strike my mind. I was thinking, is he all along cheating on me? Is he only trying to show me he is changing just in front of me, but when he is with his friend den it’s a different him. I dunno! I oso dun wish to noe!! I just noe I need to trust him! n I DO trust him!!!
After meeting with LiShao, went in Rex Hall for Success Day!!! Wow!!! Im damn HAPPY for Kok Wah man!!! Maybe bec0s seeing my good friend on stage bahhs. Got a feeling tat, Yes! He did it!!! Congrats!!! Full of Good luck for him too! And he really looks good tat day! Especially on stage!! Learn alott from the success manager’s testimonial. Really learn alott!! After the whole thing, went home in bus, den Kok Wah sat beside me n talks to me alotts alotts. Through out the whole journey, im busy listening to his lecture. Learn some things too. hohoOs!! =D
Night time had a long Chat with him. hehees. Im happy l0hhs. I noe im tired, but dunno why just dun wish to hang ehs. Still rmb him asking me:
Him: wad do eu treat me as? Boy-friend or Boyfriend?
Me: peng you l0hhs. Haahaas
Him: boy-friend or boyfriend?
Me: friend
Him: kaees. Give me an answer 1 or 2. 1 is boy-friend. 2 is boyfriend. When I say 1, eu just say yes or no, den I will noe the answer le.
Me: orh (smiling)
Him: One
Me: (smiling) =x
Him: izzit one?
Me: ehhs. 3!
Him: 3 is Hubby lehhs.
Me: (laughing) den 4 lehhs?
Him: Angel lover
Me: (laughing) den 5 lehhs?
Him: Hell Husband (laughing)
Me: (laughing) den 6 lehhs?
Him: All of the above
Me: (laughing) den 7 lehhs?
Him: 7 is None of the above.
Me: (laughing) 8 lehhs?
Him: No more Choices! haahaas
Me: haahaa. 9 ?
Him: I say no more choices right? haahaas
Me: Den wad about 10?
Him: Already say no choices liaoos. Dun understand English izzit? Den eu can go back to primary one liaoos! Haahaas =D
Me: (laughing all along)
Hey guys! When eu read this conversation, eu may find ‘him’ fierce! But hahaas, no ah! We are laughing and he is composing this 1-10 answer for me. All along.. its FUN lahhs!! hohoOs.
Den after that conversation with him, dunno wad we chat bout oso, den he sudden ask me go sleep, den I just listen l0hhs. When he was about to hang his fone, den I quick quick ask him back. The conversation goes like this: [ I think so lahhs. Cant really rmb. Cuss im still in a sleeping mode.HohoOs]
Him: Eu shud be tired le lahhs. Go Sleep! Go Go Go!
Me: Orhs (smiling)
Him: Good night!
Me: hmm!
Him: bye!
Me: ehhs.. err… … … just now that question h0hhs. My answer is 2! ( going to hang up quick quick but he sudden …)
Him: ehs!!
Den I cant rmb liaoos. Hahaas. Lols. Can say, im having a sweet dreams n sweet sleep l0hhs. hohoOs.
Today, wake up at 12pm. Waken up by Ah ki’s call. Calling me to get prepared quick as our meeting going to start soon when LiShao came. Meeting ends at 5 plus. Den rmb LiShao saying :
Dun because of ur sad past time den makes urself think there is no perfect in life n no perfect ending. Dun always think of the bad side when the things didn’t even happen. If eu kept thinking to the bad side, den it will eventually happens!
Wow!! Really gone into my mind man!!! Must remember by hard ah!! Its really knocks my mind man!! Lols.
Seriously saying, im thinking of him every now n then. I just dunno why I cant get eu out of my mind for a min! Aiyoous. Die lahhs. Hahaas. Comes to thinking, Sometimes in the morning when I go to school, I will hope to see eu below my house siahhs. But I noe it wont happen lahhs. Its just my side of thinking lahhs. But if really comes, think I oso dunno how to react, and I oso dun wish eu to do that alrights! =D
Wad can I say? I Just Miss eu lahhs!!!
Night time at xiao wei’s hse chatting bout the show ‘MISSING’. Its scary man!! I cannot imagine if one day Xiao Wei is MISSING from my life!! I cant imagine my life without her alrights!! Frankly saying, even now, im still very worried to let her go alone to office or anywhere! In my heart she is still the small gal tat needs me to guide her home. Hahaas. Xiao Wei!! Must really take care of urself lehhs!! I dun wanna see ur pictures around Singapore alrights? Even if its around Singpore, I hope its bec0s, eu have become a popular make-up artist or a Stars alrights! =D Smillee!!! I Love Eu lahhs!!!
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im lOving iiu .
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