Friday, August 10, 2007
Hi everyone! im in school now! haiis. no lesson going on den g0t time to bl0g l0hhs. HAPPY BELATED NATIONAL DAY!! hahaas. Went to playground with ahh bann, ah ki, kok wah n my siblings to celebrate our very first national day together. hahaas. FUN lohhs. playing blind mice, ice and water and jian dao, shi tou, bu! hahaas.
haiis. yesterday chit chat with xian hao, kok wah den wei ming. sleep at 3 plus last night thinking alOtt of things.
for xian hao lehhs. chit chat n0t al0tt lahhs. we are just staying in the same t0pic kept hmm.. ahh.. orhh.. l0hhs. He using his f0ne to call me den i so w0rry his hi-card money will be empty siahhs. cuss few months back, i need to find him really urgently den cant find him l0hhs. really scared ah. den when i tell him to hang up quick as i worried for his hi-card den he say maybe after hanging den no more chance to talk le. wahhs. i so so so scared man!!! dunno why he says tat too. so worry!!! Xian Hao!! Please dun scared me alrights? im really wOrry f0r eu alrights?
As for wad Kok Wah say to me, can say im really touched bahhs. but oso bringing abit of no trust for him. no choice lahhs. my mama teach me dun believe or trust anybody easily especially GUYS!! but i really g0t listen every w0rds eu tell me lahhs.
den wei ming lehhs. only chat 30mins with him niahhs. Dunno why talk to him no mood oso. maybe is becus i tell him bout Kok Wah bahhs. I can really sense eu are changing for me, and i noe its hard for eu too! but dunno why yesterday sudden think of why are eu giving in to me so much when i dont! Yes! we did pr0mise each other that we must tell each other h0w we feel or think. and everytime i really tell eu without caring whether after eu hear h0w will eu feel. i cant imagine if its me h0w will i feel. i nv stand in ur sh0es to think at all! i dunno h0w much eu have been bearing ur pain. if it was me, i think i will beng kui le! can eu dunn treat me so good? can eu dun care so much for me? i noe im stubborn n selfish! please dun treat me so good! i really hate myself for n0t thinking f0r eu while eu are the one tat kept thinking and caring bout me. but wad did i do in the end?!! NONE AT ALL!!! Arghhs!!!
Standing in between eu two. i have a sense of.... ... dunno h0w to say too. i really dun wish to lose the two of eu! i noe my decision will hurts one of eu. but i dun wan tat!! i really dun wish tat to happen! dOes it mean if there is no love in between den we will not meet often? we will not play together? we will not go outing together?
for the time being write till here bahhs. go home den continue.
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10:43 AM
