Sunday, July 29, 2007
its been a v v long time since i blog le. but dunno if eu all still continue to view it. hahaas. if nv oso nvm. if its me i oso wont view. hohoOs. anyway, im back le! kekees.
For those hu dun noe, im currently studying in MDIS taking Travel Tourism and Hospitality Management. Got tO nOe quite sOme friends there! There are Fun and lOving ehs. lOves~ Teacher started to give us project to do too! Ais..... .... Im just Lazy to start lahhs. hahaas. Cuss deadline still v far. wahahahas.
My Album is Launching on 11 August!!! Thankks eu people for coming! Especially ahh bann hu walks with me from starting of the competition till now! Thankks n lOve euu man!!! =D
Quite lOtsa things happen recently too. In the past i dui bu qi Kok Wah! Sincerely say SORRY to eu! Although eu noe the truth thru Ahki but im really glad tat eu didnt blame me and still regard me as ur friend. im really touch! Thankks Kok Wah!! yahhs! oso thankks wei ming for telling me tat Ahki tOld him! Thankks. =))
Few days back, i msg to ahh ban telling her: Dunno y suddenly i have a feeling to stay far from Ming.im really scared cus he's saying 'i miss eu' 'loving eu' like Jia Chang Bian Fan. its really hard for me to believe it.really! i scared i will try to stay far from him. what to do now? when i tell him i dun believe his words, he just say its the TRUTH! i find tat he's the same as other guys. how? I really cant overcome my past n trust his words so easily. What to do?how? Im v fan! Arghhs! But i really do cre for him! Izzit just Xi guan? Arghhs! =(
Den she reply me saying: its normal!Eu wanted to stay far from him cus eu cant forget ur past and accept his now, right? if eu are able to forget bout ur past, CONGRATS! cus only eu by doing that, eu can continue ur love life without anything holding back. Overcome it, believe me, its just how eu think only. If ming kip on saying he love/miss eu den the gal inside eu kip on telling eu ' no he's bluffing eu. dun ever believe guys words easily anymore!' i noe its easy foe me to say but hard for eu to do. eu wil nv noe the outcome of smth unless eu really go and do or try it. and eu will nv noe maybe after eu overcome it and its changes ur entire life. communicate w urself, if after eu try to overcome ur prob but still cant, nvm, tel urself that at least i did try smth and try my best. at least im not sitting down n doing nth.now the prob is ur past, if eu start to tell urself'i'm going to forget my past n sadness and start over my love life again for the sake of Ming, i wanted to love him wholeheartedly. if the love eu given to others previously doesnt get repaid or dey nv treasure, nvm, be content eu had a hong hong lie lie love for urself. eu live for urself not others. in love life eu'll get hurt no matter wad. Just how eu see the pain only. ahh ban will always be here.Love whom eu love. i'll give eu my full support!i promise! if by the tym eu are hurt, cum to me, i'll find the best way to ease ur pain.
Really thankks ahh bann for waking me up from this nightmare! hmms. i noe i got cut ur msg abit. but really too long le. hohoOs. dun mind right. =))
For Wei ming lehhs. hmms. Just hope eu dun always think every thing to the bad side. Not everything is bad eu think. Understand? if eu continue to think to the bad side eu are making urself miserable niahhs. Just like me, I have started to believe and trust tat eu really miss me everytime eu told me. and of cOz i hope eu are the one tat i can 100% leave my heart for eu to care, As eu should noe, in the past i really leave my heart with him! lOve him alotts! But in the end , he just leave me alone in a maze. Know how scared n lonely am i at that really moment? know how sadd am i? He told im too sensative, so i change! I try to make myself better for him to love me again. but not ones he look back. can eu imagine how pain it is? Once, i describe hime as Moon, and im the Stars. For the past few years, i always believe he is my and only one. i always believe one day there is a miracle he will be back by my side. Until now, i Finally woke up! there is no way Moon And Star will be together. And its true! Everytime i look up the Sky, Stars is always far from the Moon. I waited 3 and a half year cuss i really believe he will come back to me. But now! i really wish to thanks him for letting me noe that i nv love the wrong person tat year! Cus he really worthy it ! Thankks for being the first person to let let me noe wad's lOve! Thankks for letting me have a thing of walking red carpet with eu! Thanks for hurting me so much and make me stronger now! Thanks for everything and everything! Eu are part of my life once, but now i wanna kip eu deep in my heart. I will nv forget the days we spent together. I will kepp our memories well. Its the best memories i have for eu! Thankks Gee Soon!!
and of coz! after Gee Soon, i dun dare to accept any love le. Why? thats because after leaving my heart for my love ones again, he will not treasure. I wanna overcome my past and willing to overcome for the sake of you! [ eu shud noe hu eu are, dun act blur ah =) ]
I will try, I must try and im willing to try hard to believe and trust eu! I noe it will be hard for me, but no matter wad! I still wanna try. I really hope eu will be there to hold my hands and walk all the obstacles with me! I hope eu will be the one that i can leave my heart with. Although we noe each other not long and not much, but i believe, time will tell everything! If one day, i cOmes tO noe I Love You and cant live without eu, tats the day we begin. Im sure when tat day comes, we will grab each other hands tightly and will nv let go easily. Obstacles will help our relationship to be stronger, are eu willing to walk hand in hand with me and knock it down?
Sometimes i really wish to tell eu I Like eu! but just dunno wad is holding me. i really hate the feeling when eu are out of my sight. cus its shows dunno how long i will get to see eu again. Just wanna tell eu, i really Miss eu alotts!
i lOve the way eu care for me when i never take my meals reguraly.
i lOve the way eu smile at me, i lOve the way eu play basketball.
i lOve the way eu care for my skin more than me.
i lOve the way eu talk to me. i lOve the way eu tell me ur feeling.
i lOve the way eu care bout my feelings.
i lOve the way eu will worried for me if im late for school.
i lOve the way eu tell me eu will get jealous easily.
i lOve the way eu play sicssors, paper stone with me.
i just lOve the way eu dO in everything! Becos it shOws me tat im really impOrtant to eu!
Arghhs! i accidently cut my leg mah! Damn pain! Gonna use Gelly le! will update often de! thanks for reading! =D
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